Monday, November 07, 2016

Humbled, Praying, Seeking, Turning

If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.  2nd Chronicles 7:14  (KJV)

Post-election Update:  After YEARS of working and practicing amongst scores of (extra)"ordinary" hard-working people-who-pay-the-bills-that-kill (described as "deplorables" by a woman who said she wanted to be their President), I knew down deep in my bones that Trump was going to win - no matter what the polls said.  I have to say that, on Election Night, it was an amazing thing to watch as the dials on the New York Times' website flipped from blue to red, and long-suffering/"fly-over"/middle-America found her footing/voice again.  It was like watching a miracle take place right in front of your eyes - courtesy of a graph provided by our-liberal-media, you could literally see the moment-in-time everything turned.  God bless our Constitutional Republic.

In the preceding years, the progressives of the Greensboro blogosphere had gotten everything they ever wanted - and they ran with it (and over everyone else) for eight years.  And the world went to Hell.  

American turned on American.  We split in two.  Families divided, friendships tanked.  Our leaders embraced one extreme or the other for power, and We-The-People, lost all ability to meet in the middle.   

The thing about political/social conservatives (including this former doctor-blogger . . . who only embraced "citizen journalism"/started blogging because she was done way-beyond-dirty as a public servant in the Clinton administration . . . and then fell through literally EVERY crack in Federal/state/local oversight) is that we will try to reason with even the most unreasonable people . . . long after we are bathed in vitriol, and called horrible names, and our sanity/ethics/morals/faith-if-we-still-have-it are insulted/libeled all over the Internet.  Some of us will even hang in after being criminally cyber-stalked.  We'll take the beatings to try and cut through the crap - because we BELIEVE in the dialogue/debate - we believe that even the voice of one reasonable good man/woman can change the world for the better.  

Still, while we might hang in for a very long time, eventually we do give up and walk away - largely for our own survival. We turn our cheeks, and wipe the spittle-of-our-enemies off our faces.  We bind our wounds and we just stop talking.  We won't debate anymore. We won't even answer a pollster's phone call. We go through the motions of our lives as the world burns around us, and we are proven right.

And then, we simply VOTE.  

I hope/pray that this country can come together and heal under new/fresh leadership.  As an American, I can only wish President Trump the very best.

Monday, August 22, 2016

It's Been A While . . .

Once upon a time, this blog was a force of nature - my nature - not to take the beatings dished out by corporate medicine lying down.  It's all in the sidebar.  I wish I could say it's all in the past.  But it's not.  My scars have scars. Every now and then, one opens up and oozes.

(Insert Disclaimer:  I've always/only spoken for me - and only me - both then and now.  It's America.  I'm supposed to have that right.  When did physicians lose that right?  To coin a melodic phrase, "You don't own me . . .")

I blew the whistle on bad care eighteen years ago - in my own hometown hospital.  The baby whose life I saved is now a beautiful young woman going off to college . . . a woman-of-faith whose baptism I attended with tears in my eyes.  How can one regret that?

It certainly cannot be taken away - never mind that almost everything else I ever worked for and wanted was ripped from my grasp . . . by greedy mill-town good-ole-boys who lied to everyone's faces . . . and suffered no consequence whatsoever . . . because all of the hallowed organizations we look to for protection could not be bothered by one small-town doctor's god-awful experience in state-and-Federal service.

Of course, it all happened during the days of "Hillary's Village", so no one cared.

This "dime-a-dozen" Pediatrician fought a good fight.  I actually "won" the fight.  But I didn't really . . . couldn't . . . actually never had a chance.

The game was fixed from the beginning.

But I'm NOT SORRY for fighting.

I'm chasing different dreams now . . . as my profession continues to crumble around me . . . and my specialty continues to melt down at the community hospital level (Pediatrics is swimming upstream against forces I identified, and problems I predicted over a decade ago).

I'll keep trying/treading water until I can't see daylight.

A public servant's life in Hillary's Village was bad enough . . . but our current Golfer-in-Chief thinks Pediatricians do tonsillectomies for the money.

(We don't do them at all.)

Barack Obama's "reform" didn't fix any of the things that really needed to be fixed.  The ACA is a glorified Ponzi scheme doomed to fall in on itself.  Meaningful/reasonable/responsible/ethical oversight of medicine has become next-to-non-existent . . . beholding only to the almighty dollar and buried under stacks of regulations and piles of paper/binary code.  Meanwhile, science/common-sense has taken a back seat to money-grubbing political howlers flinging their poo . . . while American journalism sinks into a Joker-worthy acid-slime-bath that makes Pravda look noble.

Back when this blog was a force of my nature - I did tell you so.

The blog is mostly archived now.  The material is going to be used for something else - but I've been waiting for the happy ending.

I do have one more post in me - it's coming before the 2016 election - be forewarned. 

(11/7/2016 Update:  I thought I did - but I don't have the energy.  It's just not in me - after twenty years of fighting the good fight, I'm tapped out.  Like many doctors of my generation, repetitively stomped, I'm hanging on by my fingernails and expecting the worst.  All I can hold onto is 2nd Chronicles 7:14.)

But until then, if you don't take anything away from your cursory glance at what's left of my once-prolific online footprint . . .

TAKE IT FROM THE ONCE-BRIGHT-EYED/UBER-IDEALISTIC GIRL WHO WENT OFF TO MEDICAL SCHOOL, AND THEN CAME "HOME" TO PRACTICE PEDIATRICS . . . 

. . . JUST SAY NO TO HILLARY CLINTON!  

SHE IS NO CHAMPION OF WOMEN OR CHILDREN (I AM A STILL LIVING/BREATHING EXAMPLE), AND HER SOCIAL/POLITICAL POLICIES ARE POISON FOR THIS ONCE-GREAT NATION!!

FOR-THE-LOVE-OF-GOD-AND-COUNTRY, PLEASE JUST SAY NO!!!